It's safe to say I probably abandoned working on NaNo this month... Just too much other shit to worry about. Ugh... And Blackout needs major fixing and I need time to fix it. Right now is not good. I could start another story either the Assassin one or this other one thats been on the backburner for a while but im really interested in the moment could work... but... I just dont have the time...

I need to call and make a new appointment to see my therapist.... I'm turning into another train wreck again and thats never a good thing.... also need to refill my meds.... God.... Monday, was hell. I literally just ugh.... I dont even want to talk about it it sucked that horriblity.

I'm currently reading this new series.... I'm not sure what its called but the book is sitting right over my head here..... first book is called Way of the Shadow by Brent Weeks. Ok, its called the Night Angel Triology! Good fucking buy the boxset, it's really fucking good. Fucking loveeee the main characters. I'm almost done with the first book.... been reading a good 100 pages or so before i go to sleep around 2am. Then I'll jump into book 2.

currently playing Dragon Age on 360. Its pretty kickass. not like i was imageing it, but all the more better. Its a mix of morrow wind and Fable. I love it... You create a character and follow a plot line for the race and background you chose (theres 6 different paths) and then you can fall in love with one or more of your teammates and then it also affects the plotline. Prettty awesome.

I made a Female Dalish Elf Rouge, who I made into a Duelist/Assassin. She pretty kick ass and one hell of a fighter. And currently in love with the only other Grey Warden and only heir to the throne, the really emo whiney bitch boy Alstair. LOLZZ~ *is totally the one with the pants in the relationship* Dude, I feel like everything in that game is in utter Chaos, but it makes all the killing all the more fun. Too bad the level cap is at 25, cause im already level 19. Ugh. Oh well. I'm gonna play more of it once my brother leaves for work.

Also, working on planning my next art piece... i have an idea just need to sketch it and determine my canvas sizes.... though I think I have an idea for that too already.

Ok tummy hungry me go eat. and then play more Dragon Age.

Ugh! Painting teacher wants me to think about the next project and sketch it out. (I kinda have an idea already but I also need to come up with some other ones... I have other ideas too... not planning to do as many sketches though as I did with the past project, or I might pick another one from my past project... *shrugs*

Need to finish up last painting... and now that I've done the dunes, its not so hard. I'll be done before Yah knowit.

Then I also need to clarify my plot... of Blackout... In one sentence.  This is what I need help with.

I could have maybe done it 3 years ago when I started but now that sooo much as happened and changed that I can't really define it correctly. I'm not sure that because its a 3 part book that it had three different plots, though that sounds stupid.  Because nothing changes from each part.

I know the plot is supposed to say, MC, and what he wants to achieve or something, the enemy or obstical hindering him, and what makes it unique.

And I can name that shit no probs, but i suck at putting it into a sentence.

The main character is Zephyros who wants to escape his world in order to find another world and preserve it's 'happiness'. And this has probably got something to do with his Character, he's upset with his inner self and puts out his outter self to seem strong and is unwilling to help himself.

The enemy or obstical is Eon, and various other enemies that fight against the UBO (his organization) in order to maintain the universe's chaotic nature.

What makes the story unique is the fact that there are a bunch of secrets hiding the turth and the fact that everything thats been happening has been predeterminded by Eon and Elle (mainly).

So how to do I take this info and make it into a one lined plot?

This is what I came up with:

Super optimist Zephyros Wilder takes the fate that's dealt to him to create an organization in order to preserve Universal Peace.

But I feel like its lacking. Do you get the plot idea from that?

For the love of...ughh!!!!

The number one problem with returning to a story after so long is the fact that you cant remember where you left off. I starting work some more on chapter nine when I said to myself: "what they hell are they supposed to be doing?!" Thus I had to find my Blackout notes (the huge ass folder of 'em) and see the skeleton outline for the story. I wrote a very vauge one for it... However, I've been writing more fleshed out one for other stuff Ive been working on and thus I wish I had for blackout too... Because I feel like I linger too much in the PA when I should be worrying about the story and fighting.

Well lovely little blackout kinda knows for better or worse that Ner and Zephie are supposed to be together. I guess thats good... *headkeyboard* And I forgot over the summer I fleshed out a few alien races a bit more, so I had to go back and make sure that detail was there to round off said characters.

Characters like Iblis, Nahal, Xochi, and Aahti seemed a bit more fleshed out now that I understand where they are from and who they knew before joining the UBO. I'm so much happier about that. When Enki, Luc, and Teh join they will be fleshed out too because I who what they are like and about. Phew~ Then lastly would be Sync.... I'm really trying to figure out how I want to protrary that Clone... He should be interesting to say the least.

Sooo, I think I know where chapter nine is going... I think I had some stuff going on so that it makes a 4 day trip go by quicker. I forgot they were heading to Arionus and that takes a few days (even with a warp drive) Upon getting there.... I think, that they will meet with the ASRU (Arionian Space Reconnaissance Unit) and UAP (Universal Alliance of Planets, which is only two planets currently, because the others dont join till later on.) I might Foreshadow that Arrhae's father or grandfather, who is like the leader of the planet is the one that started the ASRU, UAP and headmaster of the ATUSE (Arionian Technical University of Space Exploration). Oh yes, I totally did.

Anywho, after blah blah, and having Enki push off on them as their 'guide', which I'll have him explain the threat of 'Space Pirates' and Ceres. After which, I think they might rest there over night, because they got their earlier then Abanddon who they have been tracking thus far. Next day, they fight and FINALLY defeat Abanddon.

After which, they'll contact Ebru back on Ace via their space ship and tell her that they are going to track down these said space pirates that are attacking Elon V. And then I think I'll end the chapter there. Only, because I wasn't supposed to introduce Enki until chapter 10.

After I finish Chapter 9 though, I plan to revise this shitty skeleton outline and make things a bit more figured out.....

Sooo Let's see.... After I finish 9, I have 10, 11, and 12 to do and I should be done with Part Two! ZOMG (which should be my 50K... If not *shrug* I'll just continue on with PART THREE.  I had chapters 7 and 8, which are the first two chapters of Part Two already written because I was working on Blackout last spring semester.

I also really badly need to remove the smut in chapter 9. o__O;;;; I don't know how it got there.... but I think I wrote it when I was getting my 7K jump start.....

Anyways, the one good thing about Chapter 9 so far is my awesome foreshadowing skills with Aahti. God, I really love that magician! He's a great character, Zeph's just lucky he's acutally on his side unlike some other people.... ;;>>

Anywho, must fix this outline and then write a bit more for tonight, WC update will be later... I guess....

Word Count for 11/01/09

 

7238 / 50000 words. 14% done!

Pfff Like I would have any less?

I would also like to add to this my other word count from the Sonic One-Shot Fic I'm working on...  that's an extra 1,355 words.
I write too much.

Anyways, I was also painting today. Which is fun. I get a double does of Blackout and then some Sonic on the side. I'm happy.
Weeeh, ok, I'm going to go write some more Sonic Fic, and then paint. Have a good night!

Yes it is!

And do remember to honor the spirits of the deceased. Or else you might be joining them sooner then expected. >;3



I think I got my hair done just in time for the event. Oh well~ I paint my nails to match my hair (red with black tips. I did the orange with black tips that one year).  I plan to wear my awesome contacts and fangs all day tomorrow. And then maybe probably my Alace jacket... after I sew up a few area which frayed somehow. Though... I have to paint tomorrow, soo... I probably wont be wearing the jacket in the day.

Plans to go to Universal are crap, or rather my brother is a big bummer and has to work so we can't go ;___; And I needed something fun. 3:

Oh well~.... I'll do something random, maybe buy some booze and chill and paint more. *shrug* Sounds sooo exciting I know, but I currently dont have any friends to go out with. My life sucks.


Soo I went to the mall after dinner with mom and Dar and I went to buy a longer Lambret because I lost the one I had that orinally went to my cuff earring, but of course I ended up buying one that was the same lenght as the ones I already owned... which are too short for my cuff thingy (which I should wear because this haircut is meant for it and because its finally healed enough to gauge widder (which I really wanna do)

I wanna get something else pierced though... I need a new hole.  Or a tattoo... I've been waiting too long to get the one I drew for the nape of my neck.

I'm still waiting for my Epica CD to come in the male. And I want Dragon Age to come out already but it doesnt till the 3rd. Fuckage! ugh! And I still have no idea what I -really- want to write about.

Bah.

Time to write more Sonadow for fans because I have to go hiatus because of NaNo.

-later

Finish 'Blackout' Part two/three

'Assassin Tales' (that's the working title for now)

'Radiant Reflection' (sequel to Blackout)

'The Heart of Infinity: Revire' (Second novel of the Elle series)

or

Continue working on 'The Mystery of the Chaos Emeralds' (Sonic Fic) + Sonic Oneshots (written out just need to be edited for posting)




Which one should I do for NaNo?
I feel bad putting my Sonic-Fans on hold for a month... I mean I am currently making them wait over two weeks for the current chapter which is almost done....

And then I really want to work on Blackout and finish it for once and for all so I can work on editing it and find a beta reader who actually wants to read that gay shit

Kyr // Brooke story is pretty fresh in my mind, I know what I want to write there.... then again I still have a lot of fleshing out to do for that one...

RR is.... well.... it could be fun. Zephyros is a great friend during the NaNo season.

HoI:R, my god... I finally figured out how I wanted to express that one... And I have most of that novel fleshed out.... It would be fun to fit back into Elle and swtich between Roan and Azure and raise young Kyr and Kry. Theres also the whole Valdius vs. Di Pecus Leo stuff there... Damn.... I really want to work on that.... but I dunno...




HELP! Which one should I work on?! for the whole month of Novemeber~!?




It doesnt matter if you have no idea what I'm talking about just pick one of the top five titles and leave it in a comment! You'd be helping A LOT!

Thank you for making me who I am today.

I'm hungry, but I should go to bed.

-____-;;

But I want to draw more.

Oh damn, what to do?


I should have worked more on my huge-mungo canvas today, but I didn't because I actually cleaned my car. Yeah, actually cleaned it (along with my room).... dude, you should have seen the dirt on my car.... it was so freaking nasty! And my car mats were just as nasty. Why is FL so fucking dirty.... wait... it's because of all the skanks right? Yup. >:3

There is sooo much dirt, and mold, and fungi down here.... my allergies go fucking nuts like all year round. I don't think I could survive without Zertic... (I think I spelt that wrong, but I dont care)

I also went to the mall today. I don't know why either. The mall sucks and theres nothing there (and far away). I did think about getting another hole in my head... piercings are always fun. But~ I settled for a cup of coffee. And then I felt better.

Then me and Dario had a conversation about art, elements, and zodiac signs.... He's such a Cancer, and we both hate earth signs. Wow... And then I realized I envy wind sign people a lot, and the Scorpio sign... because I think it's sexy.

And then I talked about how I dont feel emotion anymore and how it was strange. And then he was like: "Yeah... I kinda realized that because I haven't been picking up anything from you lately" (because he's an empath of sorts) It's so werid not feeling emotion, and being sarcastic... all the damn time. I feel like I'm wasting my time down here. I really don't know why I'm down here. Ugh.... Florida sucks.

Bitch bitch bitch blah blah blah bitch....

Ok time for bed.

On a random note....

I've been drawing wayyyy too much lately....  Mostly Kyr and Elle.....

Anyways, when I get a chance I'll have to scan the awesome pictures of Elle.... One is one of 'traditional' enchantress costume... which she is supposed to wear whenever she makes a big deal or whatever but never really does because she's lazy.... Yeah, She's got the Magical Music Box that belongs to the humans of Ehyae in the pic too... I'll scan the bigger, detailed picture of the box too, cause it's pretty.
The other picture is of Elle in an Assassin's guise... because.... unnnn She wanted to see who Kyr's outfit would look on her? Sure.... I'd believe it... XDDD  (She actually makes a really hot Assassin)

Anyways, this brings me back to my main point.....  I had to access what kinds of outfits Elle usually wears and the colors... Mostly dresses, mostly blue or silver in color....

And then I refered to a volumn of Holic because I wanted to see what kind of strange outfits Yuuko usually wore.....

Yuuko dresses really tacky, and then it dawned on my that her sense of style made me remember yet again remember why that might be so.

Yuuko is awesome anyways, if you haven't finished reading Tsubasa then you should. Because then you find out Yuuko's secret. >:3


I'll scan some more sketchs tomorrow and put them up in DA tomorrow. I want to finish the one of Kry and Kyr first meeting before I do though.... I'm trying to decide if Kyr should have his hood down for once or up? I think it would be more dramtic if I put it down and put an express of WTF on Kry's face. It would amuse me. Thing is, during that time he was more worried about being back on Ehyae then he was with being surprised... Oh well... We'll see what happens when I'm done drawing. >:3

:ShoutOut: Anyone else doing NaNoWriMo this year?



( What I'm thinking of doing? )

Every time I type up a journal post I like hit the backspace and lose it.... bahhh... ohhhh well....

Just gonna give ya'll the short verison cause I'm sick of typing about my boring life of boring....

College- Paper for Art History, Paper for General Psychology, Test for American Governement. I need to also, sketch my sketch down on my canvas later tonight/tomorrow. big huge 36 by 60in canvas (I wanted a 48 by 60 canvas..... but I forgot I have a car and it's trunk isn't as big as I wish it was.... dammit.

Note to self: Buy self studio apartment, and bigger car. (I hate being an artist sometimes.... we are so weird)

I'm an art junkie ZOMG~! Yeah, whatever, Art is awesome.

I feel empty... like void of all emotions... and even when I'm drving I usually talk a lot in my head... but its been super quiet! It's the scariest fucking thing.... I need to see a therapist again.... my fucking mentally not is really bad lately... Same with my sleeping patterns... And allergies.... Maybe I'm just being a hyprocondriate... but that wouldn't explain why I dont feel well.... like.... I dunno.... I would like to feel something... but not like... I dunno whatthefuk im talking about...

Anyways, Bolt was aweome and I like fluffy. I also would like to buy either a pet hedgehog or ferret.... still need to decide. And Dexter mhmmm.... Need to get Season 3 from netflix.... we watched Push last night... but I didnt really watch it... but meh... That moive stinks... Want more Dexter plz!

PS: will put scans of those awesome sketchs up later tonight on DA so you can see my awesome comic/sketch style.

I finished my huge ass painting last night around midnight.

I took pictures of it just now before I put in my car.

It's done, but I might eventually add more details. I love it, I really do. I can't say I've been more proud of a piece I had no idea where I was going with it till I was done. It changed quite a bit from design sketch to finished product.... but Oh well... It happens with me.... I did tell the professor somethings would indeed change... X3

I will fix photos and be posting them up on DA and the other ones will be going to the scraps.

I'll make another post later when the new ones are up.

And then I'll be writing all  later today! Fuck yes! I need to do it sooo bad.

That is all for now, time to dry and the straighten my hair.

My Fave Sonic Games of all time: Sonic 2, Sonic 3, Sonic and Knuckles, SA2, Sonic Unleashed. (In that order)

Sonic 2 - Played the game with my brother. We played it on the big screen and also on the nomad (I think it was called). Some damn good memories.
Sonic 3 - Again played this with my brother and thus it was awesome! And plus I loved the prettier Chaos Emeralds.
Sonic and Knuckles, when you combine it with Sonic 3 - Because then the Emeralds could go super, if I remember correctly. Mind you I haven't played the original Sonic in god knows how long. Loved Hyper Sonic (and even Super Tails and Knuckles).
SA2- The first game that was 3D and had multitude characters that I really enjoyed from end to finish. I loved the whole Hero side and Dark side storylines. And then one main final story. From this game that's when I think they started doing the same with the later Sonic games (exclusion of Unleashed). I also really loved the Chao Gardens, I had some really awesome Chao! I really enjoy the plot in this game, I thought it was the most original, it was entralled and still left the gamer questioning after the game was done.
Unleash - I don't care if Sonic goes Were!Sonic or not, I actually really really really enjoy the speed trails in this game! I LOVE how fast Sonic can go! I feel like this was the first game to EVER capture Sonic's real speed. I enjoy the storyline too, it was meaningful (based off another legend yes, but it was made its own and done well). I found it very emotional and made me realize how many times Sonic has had to say goodbye when he most likely didn't want to. I liked Were!Sonic, he was really cute and fluffy! I just wish this game had Knuckles and Shadow as well... Oh well!

Black Knight would have been on this list only because I really just love Lancelot!Shadow. But it isn't because it wasn't very 'original' and it was only on the Wii... Eww~~

I am probably the only person who is not looking forward to Project Needlemouse as much as everyone else... I mean sure I wouldnt mind playing it when it does come out, but moving back to 2D is dumb, in my opinion. We live in the newer generation for a reason. If they made more Sonic games like they did Unleashed, then I'd be happy. (INCLUDE SHADOW next time PLEASE!) X3

Games also need more Mobius world based links.... the games as based in Earth.... It doesn't work too well. And they also need more Mobians. Sonic also needs more of a Sonic personality (he's a jerk sometimes.... most of the time.... and does let his darkness get to him, just like everyone else, he is.... unn... well... a living breathing enity of sorts, so hes capable of Human Error like the rest of us).

Ok im done ranting. Night

-Shadow the Hedgehog Fan girls are scary! *shudders*
     -I'm glad I'm level headed about fandom.

Honestly here's the deal, Shadow isn't real, nor is any other Sonic character (and any character for that matter in all of fiction) they are fictional characters for a reason. Shadow doesn't love you, he doesn't even like Rouge, or Amy, or anyone. And no he was not in love with Maria you sickos. Shadow loves no one. Yes, it's true. He only cares about fulfilling Maria's last wish (whom he cared for and loved as a best friend and sister figure) and maintaining that wish. His second purpose is to try to convert other 'living weapons' such as Omega and Metal Sonic to become free-willed begins like himself (really, good luck with that one Shadow).

Shadow didn't die at the end of SA2, in Sonic X, at the end of Sonic X or anytime at all. He always comes back because he's immortal. Yes as in can't die (not a vampire. He's a freaking Hedgehog/Black Arms Alien for crap sakes! I think he's strange enough already).

He's not emo... honestly he cried one ONE tear! When he remembered his promise to Maria. And probably one more tear when he relived that memory once more. He doesn't cut himself, hang himself, or cry an emo river. That's Amy's job (when Sonic tells her he doesn't like her) XDDD


Ok I'm done ranting... Also, working on two stories at the moment that have nothing to do with again besides the StH world. Hmph.... Wow I'm that obcessed...  Yeah, yeah I am... also been doing a lot of Sonic Fanart (Fan Characters a the moment, but I do have some sketchs for some BIG sonic related pieces (Super Sonic Transformation and BioLizard fight with Super Sonic and Shadow probably). One of the Canvas' was so big I had to put it in the back seat, that was hell.... ugh....

I have stuff up on DA, FF, and FP. Now I shall give the links to all 3 things so that you can go screw around on them and be like... wow you suck.

http://arual-gaze.deviantart.com/
http://www.fanfiction.net/~lenex
http://www.fictionpress.com/~lenex

Ok now I shall write more about Sonic being a homo... that he is... WHUT?!
LOLZZZZ~~~
(the Sonic fanfiction on FF.net is my newer writing style, enjoy.)


PS: I'm looking into purchasing a pet hedgehog! They are sooooo adorbly cute! (or a ferret).

Cute~ Nay?!

Working on finding that damn fourth chaos emerald! the second painting for this damn painting class!

Wah?! Yeah... Totally!

Anyways, it's of a room... a room that of which I don't own in my house, a room I have never actually seen before besides some photos of Lara's I've seen. Woah! Yeah! I'm painting a picture of the inside of Lara's apartment near the living/dining/kitchen room. The walls are now Mint Green and Yellow-ish green-ish- pukey mint green-ish.... Yeah... I don't know why either... And they are stucco... it looks kind of nice to have some texture on my painting.... hm....

The next painting is portraits... I really don't feel like doing realistic, more like... anime/cartoonie/Sonic Art style wise... Yeah... BECAUSE I SAID SO! Might do something I saw someone else do with a fanart pic of Shadz. Let me find it.... mainly this one naplez.deviantart.com/art/Sonic-Tear-57110797 and then secondly this one kycha.deviantart.com/art/Rojo-y-Negro-136655980..... I really like the only showing a part of the face thing and then shading the other side really dark and then with some noise added in... I just really like the mood. If I can I wanna maybe MAYBE do myself as a Sonic Character.... if I can't it will be myself, but with that type of feel to it... because I feel like it would be best to describe how I usually am about myself.... Like... What you do see of my is in the light and what you dont see is in the darker shaded part.... cause yeah.... How awesome is that?!

I've read soooooo much Sonadow Fanfiction in the past week or soo.... my god.... But.... It's just interesting to see how people interpet the characters, ya know.... And then I spent another good portion of that time looking up stuff from the games, that I already knew but wanted to refresh on... and then what happened in the Archie and also the StC.... Soooo I kind of want to take the 3 and mix them together to create my own idea of how things are with those two.... because In the Archie comics when they are talking about the events of SA2 Sonic, Rouge, and Shadow are stopping Eggman's Doom Canon and Shadow takes of his inhibitor rings to stop it and then almost falls to his 'death' 'again'.... And Sonic catchs him and says "We don't want to repeat what happened last time" and I nearly dead. Seriously.... I think Sonic has the biggest man crush on Shadow and Shadow likes to not give a shit.... Afterwards Rouge is talking to Shadow and says "I think your relationship with each is changing" or something along those lines.... Shadow replies: "I only repect him" However, Shadow talk means... "Shit he likes me..." LOL! Sooo yeah.... Lots of reading between the lines WHAT~ LOL~! I'm sure if Shadow found out about this little man crush he'd over think it and then the two would eventually end up together.... I mean... as they say theres a fine line between love and hate... Ahem.... Sure~ it's just a Rivalry~ HAHAHAHA!

So with that said.... I'm obviously planning on working on a Fanfic.... one that will be a few chapters, once I think about a few things... like what the main plot is..... Yes, BL with plot ok~ LOL! Eggman will be trying to take over the world with EggmanLand and Whilist Shadow and Sonic's relation will unravel... and then there will be Chaos emeralds and Master Emerald shards... and Maybe some Knuxouge.... And maybe some other pairings who I actually approve of... Because I really hate SonAmy or even the dreaded ShadAmy... UGH!!!! Hello, it was actually Sonic and Rouge that told Shadz about Maria's promise! (Via Archie) SA2, yes it was Amy, but Shadz nearly killed her for opening her mouth. And in Sonic X it was Chris.... in which of course Shadz nearly murdered Chirs.... ok well he def did beat the shit out of him. LOL! Chris had it coming to him. Anywyas, yeah, planning to work on fanfiction soon.... even though I'm probably the person who hate fanfiction the most....

PS: CRUSH 40 FUCKING ROCKS!

PSS: Aboard the ARK, a genius at heart
Wanting to unlock the mysteries of life

REwatched allllllll of the Xena Series..... IT WAS AWESOME!!! And Lucy Lawless is HOT!

*DONE*

I need a new layout, preferably, Sonic the Hedgehog, Shadow, or Sonadow.... Yes... Or I'll just make it myself... when I feel like it....

I had no idea that if you got married (as gay couple) in a state that allows gay marriage, however went to another state that does not allow it... then you are considered not married within that state. Isnt that fucking LAME! UGHHH!!! Not even the Full Faith and credit clause protects them.

I feel bad for gay couples... its so hard for them. I mean its one for them unable to share things like money... you with regular marriage shit the law protects for straight couples, but in the fact that emotionally they are married and however you go to another state and they deny you as a couple the right to be considered a united married couple! With the fuck that is soooo wrong!

I think that that is sooo wrong on so many levels!

PS: Look at my pretty and shiney newwwww ICON!!!! HEHEHEH~~~ Yes~

So Lara came to visit over the summmer that was awesome! and so did Dave. I enjoyedd their visit. It was something I really needed and missed. After they left I feel back into my depression.... ugh It sucked a lot and I ended up visiting a bunch of different doctors to find out what was wrong.
Eye doctor= Eyes were find, no change in anything, low pressure in eyes. Just got new lenses sense the other ones were 2 years old and really beat up. I'll need new contacts soon though....
Dentist = My teeth are find.... I had like one or two small things but I never went back to have them taken care of because I didnt really like the doctor and I want to find a better/new one.
Gynocologist= Ummm all the problems relating to my late and painful periods had to do with stress and emotional shit... the easy fix is to take brithcontrol... the other thing I can do is lose about 30lbs.... which is what I want to do, but my depressive state of mind.... kind of makes that hard.... you know....
Regualr Doctor= Tenison headaches, depression and of course elvated liver ensymes. I went for a bunch of blood test I had somewhere around 13 vials of blood taken within a month just to figure out what the fuck was cause the liver pain.... Sooo as it turns out it was because I'm allergic to Naperson... the main ingredient in most asprin... soooo yeha.... he told me to take asprin when I had really bad tension headaches and sooo i was addicted to asprin for a while which is why my liver was screwed up to begin with. So I switched to Advil which is the only asprin that doesnt have naperson.... and I've been doing a lot better. with my liver that is.... And my Tenison headaches have stopped for the most part.... though they were being cause because of my depression.... Anywho doctor had me on wellburtin for a while.... but now im off it and considering refilling the drug because I still have a refill and can feel the depression coming back in waves.... soooo ugh,.... Thats another story in itself
And lastly, Therapist...= Countlising of sorts... it really helps shes done a great good for me and now I know where most of my problems relate and what i should be trying to do to better myself though.... at the moment theres not much I can do considering my position with college and everthing else.... But if all goes well I should be getting my AA by the end of the spring semester and then be moving in a dorm by next fall smester and then be doing a lot better and end up weeding myself off the wellbutrin....

College has started back up four classes: Painting and art history being my favorite classes so far! YEAH! ART!!!!   | D
The other two are American Governement which is a repeat of sophomore year of history class... its quite boring but easy to say the least.... And then General Psycology which I know will be the only hard class these semster! Ughhh and it just sooo happens that class is the only class I i couldnt get at Tarpon so I have to drive to clearwater.... whatever.... Sooo Monday, Wed, and Thursday are my class days and the other other days Im busy spacing out and doing homework and reading a bunch of fan fiction....

But before I go on blabbign about that.... yeah... having some probably with admissions need to talk to advisor about those problemas.... primarly trying to get into math classes next semster.... seeing as they screwed up transfering my math credits somewhow.... ughhh....

AND lastly.... neweest and long time favorite fandom has come back and tackled my brain with full force.... Yup, you guessed it.... SONIC THE HEDGEHOG! Yup, yup.... It all start when I brother picked up the 2006 Sonic the Hedgehog game again so we could finish getting the xbox adchievements... but you know we erased the game data and thus have to replay it frome the beginning.... Whatever, I ended up frailing over Shadow all over again. And rocking out to his mad epic theme songs and such.... Second favorite Hedgehog being in a really really really close tie would be Silver and Sonic... they switch between being seond and thrid often soo ugh.... you know how it is.... Thus lead me into the Sonadow fandom.... shortly after having fallen in love with the Shadliver fandom as well... but Sonadow is bigger... beign that more people love sonic over silver....Anyways, downloaded like everyhtig every song ever made by crush 40 and any song related to the modern sonic games... You know like the theme song for Sonic Unleashed which was the onyl sonic song that wasnt done by crush 40.... and then like Rouge and Amy's themes.... not to mention Kunxs and Tails theme songs.... ughhh....

Did I ever mention how much of a StH fan I am? Honestly.... I used to read the original comic back in the day, played the original sonic games and beat them.... watched the older sonic cartoon: The Adventures of Sonic the Hedgehog.... Played most of the modern sonic games exculding the Sonic riders games, only because that game never really made much sense, and because I never really liked Jet the Hawk and all his birdy-goon-firneds... UGhhh~~~ soooo SONIC! SONIC FUCKING RULES!!!! 1991 Baby! Whoooo!!!

Shadow is my fave cause well... come on, who doesnt love Shadow?! Shadow, the Ultimate Life form! Shadow, the experiment created by Professor Gerald Robotnick and best friend of Maria Robotnick. The Dark hedgehog with a much dark past and much darker personality then Sonic. The one hedgehog whose past is still a mystery even to himself. Shadow the son of the alien Black Doom! Yeah that fucking amazing hedgehog who can manipulate Chaos Engery in more ways than one! --- Yup is obvious I know wayyy too much about Shadow....

Anywho.... anyone whose also up on this fandom, feel free to poke me and chat me up on StH I'm bored, and we all know he's mad awesome and totally in Love with everyone but Amy Rose. Ahem what?! oh yes Sonic, we know you really dont like girls at all... even if you did have like 5 diferent girlfirnds at one time in the Sonic ComicVerse. MWAH AH HAHAHAH! Sonic you slut!

Ahem... yes and not to mention I'll be getting around to working on BlackOut again.... once I stop reading Sonadow fics.... .... Yeah.... Because I realized a lot of things I'm missing from that story and that I go on too long bullshitting in some scenese and because I just really really really need to get that first draft of that story done at least so second draft can being. X3

That's all for now.... LALALA~~~~

And don't call Shadow Emo or else~~~
Shadow: *cocks his .44 Magnum*

PS: I've also been playing too much Gears of War 2.... Ahhh~~~ *revves her chainsaw*